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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 01:17

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She was in good health!

We were not on the streets..

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Comes on , in middle age.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

A kid threw a stone at my car. I confronted his mom (who was nearby). She said, "You can't prove it was my son." How should I have reacted?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Why do men think I’m easy just by looking at me?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My mum and dad in the seventies!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do I randomly start sweating a lot in public (while waiting in line, in a new class, etc.) then start sweating more because I’m embarrassed that I’m sweating so much? Is this social anxiety?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But ive been too sick for many years..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My life is so biszare .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I said to her

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

What did i know ?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My family never makes their pension either.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I don,t even have a pension.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was seconnd youngest,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was scared of men, in general

This is how, and why children get BPD.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I write beautiful poetry .

But it wasn’t much.

All the time i was locked up.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It was going to be , some day.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So, i spoilt her more .

Especially a lifetime of it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One cannot live in the past .

When she asked me how she looked .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Im still living with it.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Ive learnt so much.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And i lived it daily.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Put me off passion for life!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But, we were locked up after school.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Who then, do I blame.?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was very sick at this time too.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We all went to grammer schools

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I have no regrets .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He knew the spot.

Would this be the day?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I think the readers, may guess!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I waited trembling.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was 9 years of age.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is soul school!.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I will be 64.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She loved him until the end.

So whats the point in blame.

She married twice! .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She wouldn,t have been !